Distraction

One of the slogan of lojong that speaks right to me is Work on your biggest problem. I know very well my biggest problem: distraction. Whenever I am aware of it -- of course this is a big if, I find myself caught in the middle of sort of distraction. It seems this is a hopeless for me, not much progress despite years of reminding and practice.

But somehow I remain hopeful -- I have faith in myself, or more likely I have faith in my practice. For one thing every moment I realize that I am distracting myself is a moment of awakening, a tiny bit step in the right direction. Also Norman Fischer's writing gives me a lot hope too: every time I read his writing, I feel more hopeful, more at ease with the "problems" I think I have. Being human is a problem, every person is sick, the whole world is one hospital ward. That's the essence of the first noble truth.

Also I read and listen to a lot Ajanh Bramh's teachings. Very straightforward teachings. It warms your heart. It cheers you up. At the same time his humor lightens you up. In a sense practicing Zen gives you a big picture, a Macro view of the world. Whereas Teravada tradition grounds you back in everyday life, guides you through the mundane problems. And you see a clear path to higher level consciousness -- five precpets to start with, working on the five hindrances one by one, and a step-by-step meditation guidance. And above all the message is very simple and direct: be mindful and be kind -- kindful. To all other people and yourself.

With that backdrop everyday is anew for me to work on my distraction. Realizing that I will never get distraction out of my life, but everyday presents a chance for me to work on it. It's just like my sitting meditation. Distraction will always come, just do not engage with them. "Mara I see you, but I will not be fooled this time".